As we see ordination, structure, and titles begin to be established in the latter part of the first century church, I wonder how unavoidable it for the idea of "corporate" to become something negative. We desire the message of the gospel to spread large and wide. But this growth also brings about the necessity for structure and this tends to shift a movement to become something more the likes of a corporation and even perhaps take on the vibe of being institutionalized versus organic. Again, as I said earlier, I am someone who highly values structure and I now seem to find myself wondering how to find the balance between having structure and fluidity. How can we, as a church, create the policies and structures needed to allow the church to function properly but also create a place where the Spirit can continuously move?

Secondly, I also wonder if Paul really valued women in His ministry and the letters written were addressing more specific issues, how did we get to this place where women have been told that we're insubordinate and not allowed to preach and minister because we are women? It still baffles me to know that I am still often questioned by my male peers about the authenticity of my calling to be a pastor.